not worth it.

I don't know why I try to keep someone in my life. Better yet, I don't know why people disappoint me a lot. I don't really know what I did to deserve it. I can have someone in my life that means so much to me, and then it just all goes away real fast. I feel like giving up on everything and not willing to try to have someone.

I'm not sure if I make the right choices and I'm not sure if I should be making promises with a lot of people anymore. It's really not worth it, and I don't know if I trust people as much as I used to. I would love to, but it never really works out, ever. I'll always be there for the ones I love, they think I always forget about them and just move on with my life, it's not that easy at all. I would never want to move on and forget someone. It's not me.

You never know what you've got until it's gone. One of the quotes you should really listen to. Sometimes I'm the dumb ones and I leave the ones I love, but sometimes they leave me. I realize to myself that I just lost something that was amazing and something that always kept my going every single day. After they leave me, or I leave them, I break down. I don't know what to do anymore. I ask myself everyday is it even worth it? Should I try and get them back? Or should I just take a step forward and give up on it? I never know what to do, I never will, and I never know if the thing I do is right.

I know I'm just a 17 year old girl, and don't know much about love. Love is a strong word, and I know for a fact that no one really knows what it means. People may think they know what it means and know what it is, but you don't. You can be in a relationship that may last a lifetime but if you really think about it, what's love all about? Not just being with someone for such a long time. Not thinking about them 24/7. Sometimes I think someone needs to prove to me what love is, but no one can do that, since you don't even know what it is.

I don't know if I should even be looking for love, without knowing what it means. It could mean a lot of things, but, it may not be the right thing. It could break someone down, and just tear them apart. Hate and love; both strong words. Never use them unless you really mean it. A lot of people say, i hate you. Hate is a very strong word, and you never mean it. So don't say it. You'll regret it. But the main thing is, if you really need someone, or have someone you never want to let go, don't ever give up on anything.